CHRISTMAS MINUS QUITE A FEW.

So this will be the first Christmas for me without my sister and nephews. It's been tough knowing that it will be this way. I've attempted to exist everyday without thinking about it but still I know it will hit me Christmas day. My sister has decided now that it's too difficult on her children to talk to me, so she has chosen to deny my requests to speak to them. She says she'll give my messages but I have to say that I doubt the validity of that statement. I just can't understand how she can say that it's harder for the boys to hear from me than not to. How can that possibly be truth, when I know how much they love me and my family. She knows that we all love them and I can't think of any other reason for her decision than to try to force me to change my mind about her. It's not only a really ineffective way to get on my good side, but it's also exceptionally cruel - not just to me and my family but also on her own kids. I don't know why she wants to hurt me so much. It's beyond my abilities to grasp who she has become. She sent me a Christmas card today and of course it was bubbly and excited like nothing has happened which irritated the hell out of me. How can she act as if she hasn't destroyed our family? I truly feel like I don't know her anymore. I guess sometimes that's just life. Sometimes, it really sucks. Good thing that sometimes, it's really amazing. : )